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Kill The Cycle
03:33
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Retaliation
Victim creation
Self righteous delusion
Psychotic confusion
Dysfunction, lack of reason
Sudden change of season
Unfounded assumptions
Hypervigilant judgments
Inappropriate explosion
Most potent contagion
Of hatred and blaming
Accusation and shaming
There is no solution
Only circular revolutions
Of something so inhuman
Designed to suck you in
Morality all twisted
Which one is afflicted
Who sees the objective
And who is infected
Devoid of compassion
Our darkest reflections
Feedback loop reaction
Living reverberations
Vampiric condition
Spirit manipulation
Traumatic memory retention
To the point of obsession
Self righteous hell virus
Tell me why this spell exists
Watch it slide up, inside us
Somehow we don't even notice
You suffered so much
You forgot how to love
But I won't be tricked
Into hatred like this
I wish I could help but
My words are not enough
Can you see it for yourself?
Do you know what you have missed?
Why bother explaining
This shit has no ending
Ignore all the feelings?
Or ruminate unending?
I can't take my mind off you
I just don't know what to do
I refuse to look at you
What did we all do to you
Fatal flaw your painful claws
Crossed the line you're gone this time
There's no doubt what it's about
I'm not blind you betrayed your kind
Don't fall for the bait
When loved ones fall prey
It's not who you think
They're gone for the day
Never let them take
Your love away
And if things don't change
Then you must escape
Their circles don't break
It's too much to take
You can never win
When you let them in
There's no more to say
Simply walk away
Only love should stay
And maybe, somedayโฆ
Maybe they can see reality
Please do not let your pain
Make you inflict the same
Or the hatred will reign
Trauma ate away the brain
Don't become another psycho
You're the one to kill the cycle
Don't become another psycho
You're the one to
Kill the cycle
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Be Free Now
03:27
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Parasites and vampires surround unseen
And silly Halloween attire is not what I mean
I'm talking real fucking vampires
That find you when you're bleeding
And hide where you don't see them
Taking your life, your energy leeching
Til you want to die cause you have no feeling
Just empty inside; that's all you believe in
If you don't realize with what you are dealing
And fight for your life from this fucking demon
You might never find your freedom and healing
It's taking your mind, it's taken your reason
Are you still inside? Can you even hear me?
If you're still alive, please tell me you hear me
Be aware of the ways that bitterness can express
Even where I think I've made the decision that's best
Remember that I sever this connection for my health
And never as a leverage of punishment to regress
I hate that I want to hate you
Want to blame you want to shame you
Want to make you feel the pain you
Always gave to those who came to you
Wanting to save you trying to change you
Or needing your help with no one to turn to
But feeding your hell is all that you learned to do
Lead everyone else into the dirt with you
Leeching our health, defending the worst in you
So I really want to hate you
Want to blame you, want to shame you
Want to make you feel the pain that
Always came to those who were brave to
See your face and still embrace you
Big mistake; this illness breaks you
It's too late now I'm the great fool
With two fangs you ripped our faces
And now I just want to hate you
But if I hate you
Then I will become you
So what do I do with this anger inside of me
Want to knock out every tooth screaming "OPEN YOUR EYES PLEASE!"
But that won't even work; in fact it will make things worse
Cause this time you'd be right, having tricked me into a fight
And then I would be no better, never be a good example
It's because you are so bitter that all this shit has happened
Now it's clear I have no option but to take this as a lesson
The forgiver is the winner in the cycle of aggression
From a distance I can win this
Just forget this lust for vengeance
No more fucking second chances
Know you'll never truly listen
Not until you prove redemption
But wait, is my decision
A subconscious attempt at punishment?
The anger struggles within
And claims to be defense
Your hate, my protection against
By way of not crossing the bridge
Never let yourself become victimized
Like they did
Or you'll suffer the same sick demise
That they did
But you don't have to close your eyes
In hatred
Guess nobody ever told them why
That's dangerous
Cause nobody ever showed them kindness
Just anger
Now they're only a ghost, their soul took flight
No angels
Just a body that left its soul behind
Too late now
This tragedy left a hole behind
Be free now
Be free now
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Demontia
04:02
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Who are you now?
I don't understand how
Did you throw in the towel
Did you deal with your devil?
All these questions keep on running through my mind like
Have I forgiven if I kick you out of my life
Just don't feel like you will ever get your mind right
All the love you gave was just a trick like pyrite
I can't let you make me hate cause then I'd let your demons win
Does that make any sense when I won't talk to you again
Cause honestly you're dead to me and that's not me but you can't see
That your disease has turned you mean and given us PTSD
If this is how you treat your family
Then give me peace, just leave me be
We'll never speak again as long as you breathe
You'll die alone with your paranoid fantasies
That's a harsh thing to say but it's how I really feel
I would love to see the day when you know what is real
But you harbor so much hate for the ones who caused you pain
And now you're just the same, just the same, you're the same
So many times I heard you cry
"It ain't that hard to be nice"
"It really blows my mind"
So eat those fucking words sometime
Hurt people hurt people and you have too
No matter your delusional excuse
Your actions you can never reasonably explain
Trapped within the loops of your manipulated brain
Hurt people hurt people and you have too
No matter your delusional excuse
Cause you harbor so much hate for the ones who caused you pain
And now you're just the same, just the same, just the same
So defensive of your chains
Sick within you've never changed
I'm just ash against the grain
Now my hope has gone away
Vampiric, you love to drain
I fear it, I lost my way
Been near it, too many days
Now my spirit has lost its taste
How will I ever really know
If you're healing in your soul
Every time you crush my hope
I know you tried but you're too broken
Now I don't know what to do
I just want to run from you
Never let you suck my loosh
No more trust, to tell the truth
Burned that bridge down every time
Shut up, sit, now tell me why
You let the demons blind you with lies
Do you even try to fight
Voices twist your mind inside
Feasting every time you cry
Beating every one who tries
To show you love and make things right
Do you understand your fate
You've become what you most hate
Nudge you forward you hit the brakes
Turn around, bite like a snake
I ask for help, you say okay and
Change your mind the very next day
Terrorize my family
In your eyes what can you see
I blocked your numbers on my phone
Don't care if you die alone
Not because I'm one to hate
I just have to run away
I am not your Jesus, so
I severed every cord between us
Not because I aim to blame
I just need to stay away
Away
When your body dies you will be free
Your tower of lies you will finally see
When it falls from the sky you will face me
You're a false advertisement of self pity
I hope you see the truth just once
I want you to feel what you have done
And know that it's for only you to judge
Unlike you, I'm not one to hold a grudge
This is not a message of anger
This is only my personal reminder
Stick with love, don't be a monster
Don't fall into the cycle that ate your mind up
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Stop Of Your Heart
02:31
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At the stop of your heart
Am I gonna grieve
Cause right now that thought
Means nothing to me
You were there since the start
Of my memory
I don't care; you've departed
My family
How did this illness fill your brain
Was it the pills that kill the pain?
You could have healed in different ways
But down the hill you fell from grace
Despite the fright inside your mind
Beside the spite your light was bright
Can't fight the blight that lies and bites
We tried and tried your eyes went blind
The window sills, the window panes
Your blood has spilled like thick old paint
The light that filled has slipped away
Our loving will not fix insane
Possession kinda might describe
The web of lies you hide behind
Recite the lines that blind what's right
See kindness slide out right from sight
At the stop of your heart
Am I gonna grieve
Cause right now that thought
Means nothing to me
You were there since the start
Of my memory
I don't care; you've departed
My family
Will I feel anything for your last heartbeat
To be real I don't think I would have a single
Tear, I might even laugh when I see
Your spirit free when your casket sinks
When I see you leave now that's relief
You'll meet the god of which you speak
And peace will flood your tortured being
And he will guide you through the scenes
You'll see the light now finally
Of all the times that you were mean
And all the times that you were weak
And all your kindness, everything
And you can't hide the truth will speak
And so maybe then I'll start to unfold
But today what's in my heart is cold
Got no anger left, just shards of gold
From the day you ripped apart my hope
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Packed full of finely crafted sounds, textures, melodies, rhythms, harmonies, and conscious, insightful poetry, I translate spirit into sounds that aim to induce states of psychedelic trance and emotional catharsis.
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